Ageing Agony

My hand is still stretched out towards the heaven

And my heart waits for you without a reason.

Time has elapsed so gleamingly all this time

Hovering smugly over the noise of any tearful chime.

I feel our fresh past, rueful and agonising.

I remember the time when you broke my wing.

And attached it with yours and flew away from me forever.

Crippled and broken I was, over my cursed fate to deter.

All this time I had been devoid of your sound,

The grass of my life turned ugly yellow on the parched ground.

Today, the freshly bloomed roses of my inspiration no more live,

And there is fear in my eyes, concealed but still olive.

I'm so sure that I will never be able to overcome this shock.

I'm sturdy but my heart is composed of the fragile cotton rock.

Pain is so easily penetrable through my thin skin,

That it makes me believe that in the game of life I can never win!

Every moment I ask myself, what caused you to leave my hand,

And disappear like a small shell in the vast stretched ocean of sand.

No reasonable answer appears in my mind which could soothe me for the rest of my life,

How will l be able to love again when my beating heart is being pushed deeper into the knife?

The flames of my spirit ended up into the haunted reaches of the wraith,

Claiming, altogether, my diminished resources of exuberance and dainty faith.

You came into my barren life, and it eventually became so sweetly fertile,

So ignorant of the real truth that when you're away it will again get docile.

A force of despair pulls me down to sink in the spate of tears I produced,

Coupled with the ageing agony which makes me lost, totally bemused.

So much pain is present, can it be avoided? Is there a way?

Can I sleep once in the serene night and never see the next day?

The Sun has Set

What I beheld with grace bit me off

It was scary, the pain that inched me

Everything seemed so natural, so blessed when I looked back

Never anything said that all of a sudden I would become slack

Ever, like this.

The Sun always shone clear, warm and lovely

It always kissed right on the cheek with an affable affection.

It slapped today when I tried to overlook the obvious

When I focused on not allowing my heart to realize

That she had gone miles away from it forever.

I was accustomed of losing myself in the twilight of your dim eyes

I never wanted a dusk to break into my perfect life.

Every helpless feeling dawned into the new horizon of my new sight,

When the Sun of my living had set into a sterile, ugly night.

I wonder if we were ever two beings having a common heart

If out scent ever interwined and glistened the aura.

I drowned in reality, the preposterous had occured

My life, in every form, had noticeably broken, flustered.

Was I smug in acting the way my heart yelled me to do?

I agree to the cons confirming that I was the man with emptiness.

I actually never held a chalice of love and offered it to her!

I always expected that she had known that I loved her...

This kind of insecurity has never came across me

I'm feeling afraid of death!

Death - the unavoidable, inescapable fate of anyone

I know I'll die without her.

The charisma of your faintly lit face still haunts me,

When you visited me for the last time.

I tried to understand the cause of your rejection then

But today, it's completely insignificant.

I'm like a blind searching for a coin in the mayhem.

My willingness to live this cruel world which always gave me pain

Was just because I knew I had someone to live for.

Everything has quickly changed.

I failed searching for something that could stop me from dying

Everyday.

I wish, someone showed me the way to her

What my heart dreams everyday, wants to feel now.

I cannot retain my blood in the veins if she doesn't returns

I will have to collapse.

I cannot remember when my heart had last fret,

But I know that the sun of my life has set.

And I want my set sun back!