Gaping Hole

I blinked to shed the tears
Which fell on my splinched heart.
They wanted to heal the loss
Or at least make a little start.

But my eyes were old
Unable to help the remaining me.
The tears only wetted my heart
And my soul still screamed.

I always ended up in mess
Despite all my regular prayers.
I was slowly breaking down
My heart was losing its layers.

I was becoming a stalk
Devoid of a single petal.
The gentle morning sun made me feel
Like a cold tongue glued on burning metal.

The life He made me slip into
Was a life of complete despair.
What if I committed 100 murders in my last birth?
Still the punishment I received was not fair!

Death in one stroke is so convenient
Dying everyday is hell.
I feel like a helpless crab
Acid is raining on my perforated shell.

I'm clearly mauled by fate
Cursed with a feeble heart.
I'm ordered to walk in this world
Tied in the depths of a wheel-less cart.

And now my strength is breaking
While my heart decays.
I feel a hole building up inside my chest
When I'm rendered translucent in the sun-rays.

When will these pains be revoked?
When will I learn to smile?
Will I ever own a home?
Or eternally stay into exile?

Some answers are all I need
No more confusion I can bear!
Can someone fill my gaping hole?
Can anyone hear?