Disintegrated Friendship

I still remember the first time we met

There was something so different about you

Your friendship was something I wanted to get

That smile when you said 'hi' to me was so new.

Out of no where you called me on the phone

I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever

You were so new, so crazy and unknown

I just knew that our friendship would never sever.

Two years and we are barely holding it together

What happened to the way this all used to be

I never wanted you to move out of my likes ever

I sat there for a long time pretending not to see.

We decided to go out and make it all all right

It didn't work out, of course, we knew it couldn't

We couldn't even really stand each others sight

Everything simply ended the way it shouldn't.

It does not mean that we have become bitter enemies

It only means that we are no longer popular cronies.

I miss you and everything you were to me

Ten years from now we will look back on it all

We will be older and finally be able to see

That love will stand the test of time and never fall.

Eclipse

I see no light when I wake up

Everything's dark, hazy and messed up

I move ahead to light a candle,

But, sigh!, the flame produced also dwindles.

 

Irated, I switch on the torch

And the fluctuating little light it produces, I watch

I wonder why everything's so quiet and dark,

I cannot even hear any street dog bark.

 

The time is 12:00 noon

I see no sun or a faint moon

Is the time passing by, an eclipse?

The same time that countless philosophies depict -

 

As sad, black and inauspicious,

Because nothing natural around is luciferous.

Is it relating to something bad?

All such questions are making me mad...

 

There is an uncomfortable chill around

The tranquility outside produces no sound.

My tissues are feeling insecure,

Help! I don't want to be here anymore.

 

I have sensed that this eclipse has some relevance

With my life as it carries some vehemence

Which is the soul of my being,

Parting from it, I'll be eventually dying.

 

Exasperated, I have taken out a knife

I dont want to live an eclipse in my life.

I'm ready to bid a 'goodbye' to this world,

I no longer can pretend to be bold.

 

I'm ready to cheer the world with my demise

But suddenly I see something that makes me surprised.

Outside the sun is shining bright,

Everything has lighted up and now there is no reason for my fright.

 

Late but yes, I've realised it -

Good and bad days come and hit

We shouldn't be carried away by success or failure

And take personally any discomfiture.

 

I'm glad and satisfied

I take back all the references that dried -

My mood and occupied me with dullness

Finally, with little effort, I've restored my sanguineness.

Best Gift

She turned out to be something new.
Far better than the first impression,
Her personality made on my mind, phew!

I thought she was inhuman and insane.
Acting imprudent everytime,
Obviously hated showing she had some brain.

I became friends with her,
Only because she was intimate with my 'dearest'
And so I had to entertain her without any murmur.

Once I had a disgraceful tiff with her,
It upsetted us both
But I suffered more than her.

"Who cares?" I thought once,
But I did care and it mattered,
As I am not really a dunce.

I approached her to say a 'sorry'
Because I cannot live with any disgust,
That forces me to worry.

Things became formal and gradually nice.
We no longer fought,
Like brainless cats and mice.

She was simply the opposite of what I thought she would be,
She was lively, fun-loving and daring;
Who had the ability to make anyone tension free.

I love her as a friend now.
And I will always be true to her-
I solemnly and firmly take this vow.

She is someone of my kith and kin.
I cannot dare to upset her again,
Because I don't want to commit yet another sin.

I wish, everything remains fine between us both.
I cannot afford to lose another friend.
And even the very idea of such consequence, I loathe.

A Message

He was so homely; he made me at ease,
I'm just referring him as a "good friend" -
Don't let your imagination fly high, please!

He was pretty smart and attractive,
I wanted nothing but him as loyal towards me,
I started to become possessive.

He came into my class
I was beyond control and overjoyed
And the boundary of my elation grew vast.

But gradually I came to know he's cheap,
He is characterless and aimless,
I stared at my conclusion with awe and disbelief.

I stopped talking to him.
He said a 'sorry' but I knew it was fake and hollow,
Thus, my grief took the form of anger on its brim.

From the deep inside me, he's still a friend,
But I won't show it unless he realizes what he is doing,
And the infuriation I possess won't bend.

Someone Special

I agree your presence made me red.
You always made me exhilarated,
With every word you said.

When you came closer to someone else,
I cannot express those feelings,
And what I actually felt.

My anger was on its brim.
But, bad heavens, I could only,
Notice you linger with him.

I consoled myself saying that you were never mine.
But I never thought,
Until when I could remain fine?

Everything happened so quickly,
That internally I had no room
To act sagaciously.

I had many other options than to accept that,
You were coupled with someone else.
And your courting with him, I detested.

What the heck you liked in him,
Still remains a conundrum for me,
And the shit reason of all my whims.

I said I loved you
And I will stick with you too.
Let anything come, my love will remain blue.

But no, you never respected my feeling.
You just used and threw me,
As if I was a bloody gosling.

I regret, I condemn, I loathe,
Whatever time we spent together
In our imaginary love boat.

I never wanted our relationship to end this way,
I wanted to hug you
And then go my own way.

I curse, time chose me as its victim
But what could be done now?
Other than to snigger on this stupid reason.

I could never even think you had that much guts to leave me,
I always lived in a delusion then
I thought come whatever may, you will never flee.

You were so pretty and enchanting
That I always took you along,
To practice what people call as 'flaunting'.

This never proved my affection was false
Or it was unanimated or putrid,
Like a corroded statue of bronze.

With a tear I accepted the truth.
I realized I was no more a priority to her,
Or something good.

I forever lost my forte
I am alone in this labyrinth
And to make the matters worse, I'm lost.

But today I'm glad that she's happy.
May the omniscient always bless her,
And make me no more crabby!

I guessed I deserved her denial,
Because I had nothing,
That made ME distinguished or special.

Whatever may be, I still remember those nights,
When my hand locked hers,
And we together watched the skies.

My Reality

I always face dejection.
Is it only because I live fathoms away from perfection?
Do you think it is my fault?
Ofcourse not!
Who wants to become the victim of mental assaults?

They don't know my potential.
But I know it a little.
An it's trivial.
Trivial enough to be considered as inessential.

I try to be bold.
But for this I need some more friends,
Who are faithful enough to hold,
The essence of my feelings
Which are seldom ignored.
Talking with me people feel bored.

I cannot weep or cry,
Because its against the image of an 'ideal' boy.
But I am not too coy,
To redress everything that fetches me joy.

Why can't people bear me smile?
Afterall, even I'm a juvenile.
But no, people think I'm rude and bad,
Fit for a mental asylum because he is mad.

Earlier I used to laugh on such objections.
But today I've weakened considerably,
After facing so many similar harassing perceptions.

Some of my friends say that my eyes are deep,
I agree, because they are filled with those tears which I'd weep.
No one has ever appreciated me.
Those 'ones' have only reminded me that,
I'm nothing more than a parasitic flee.

I know I have some talent,
But whenever I move ahead to display it,
This barbarous world interferes and coerces me
To lament.

I tried to change myself.
But I cannot accomplish this task
Until people possess an invidious prejudice,
About me, who is indeed hapless.

I've lost.
Lost against the same world,
That left me engrossed
And gave me that strength which I awfully tossed.
It has made me a destitute today,
And like a beetle shivering in the frost.

The Ghost

Last night I met a host,
But alas! He was a ghost.
He offered me butter-toast,
And, a whole carcass on roast!

His eyes gleamed like copper,
As if burning through a hopper!
There was no strand of hair on his big head,
This sight made me almost dead!

He was thick at the middle,
Taking me to be his second fiddle.
In a bid to escape I bogged him with a riddle,
The riddle left him in the middle...

The riddle was,
"How will you search a man, who has no hand?
Who sometimes loafs around and is in a band?"

He thought for a moment and said,
"I can answer because I'm a master
But for judging me through these stupid riddles,
You ought to face a disaster!"

He raised his hand and chanted,
Nothing much happened but another ghost was attracted!
Seeing each other, they started fighting -
As if a cat sees a mouse after a long period of dieting!

Seeing them fighting, I utilized the opportunity by running away...
But soon the former ghost blocked my way!
He appeared to be a little bit frightened,
And all of his hidden fear was lightened!

I asked him innocently the reason of his trepidation.
He fearfully said,
"Don't leave me alone,
I'm afraid of ghosts and darkness!!"