If I Could

If I could have stopped you timely,

You would have been with me today.

If I could have been wise in making friends,

I wouldn't have been crying in dismay.

If I could have known what life means,

I wouldn't have slit open my vein.

If I could have understood what you feel,

I would have never suffered any pain.

If I could have seen the future,

I would have easily escaped today's torture.

If I could have learnt to smile,

Then today I wouldn't be slowly dying.

If I could have been a good person,

I would have many friends.

If I could have been what I am,

Many would have served me with their helping hands.

If I could have seen the sun,

I would have never thought to live in the dark.

If I could have seen a conflagration,

I would have never rejoiced at a mere spark.

If I could have longed to win,

I would have never faced defeats.

If I could have cared for my losses,

I would have avoided my eyes to bleed.

If I could have tasted affection,

I wouldn't have been ever alone.

If I could have been more open and social,

I wouldn't be ever considered as a drone.

If I could have dreamt about happiness,

I wouldn't have got these sad days.

If I could have been bold,

I wouldn't be the target of an awful gaze.

If I could have desired to stay jaunty,

I wouldn't have ever cried.

If I could have kissed a fresh petal,

My spirits wouldn't have dried.

If I could have learnt to fly,

I wouldn't have become an awful burden.

If I could have been trained to retaliate,

I wouldn't have broken because of a single hurdle.

If I could have been faithful myself,

I would have won loyal cronies.

If I could have been equal to all,

I wouldn't have got so many enemies.

If I could have been sane and homely,

I wouldn't be tagged by everyone as 'lonely'.

If I could have just wished that, "If I could",

I wouldn't have attracted those termites to feast on my life's wood.