I'm not what I was

There was a time in the forgotten past when I used to smile.
I remember my face when my expressions were not docile.
I miss those smiles of mine which rocked my confidence,
And in no field I could see myself behind or defident.

Whenever I stepped onto the stage, I would win,
My eyes could clearly reflect my unmatched prepotence.
The fear in others could be seen when they were told,
Against whom they actually had to compete and stand bold.

I had an image full of flare and flamboyance,
And on my verdict nobody could stamp 'defiance'.
My life was once reeling and fascinating,
And everywhere I went immense comfort it would bring!

But with time I started to lose my charm.
I don't know if it were people or the careless me to blame for my harm.
I guess it was the unlucky time and the bad circumstances,
Which brought me, one after the other, doleful grievances.

I started to become aloof and indifferent,
And also haughty, callous and over-confident.
I cannot say what caused me to deplete,
But with passing time, I became used to defeats.

I lost my friends, I lost my happiness,
I lost my smiles and became sadly helpless.
I became a bird whose wings were broken,
And an empty treasure chest with the lid open.

I started changing from an elated person to a sad one,
Within few days my all exuberance was churned.
And the resultant fellow who then came,
Had no confidence and for every little thing,
It was only himself, he blamed.

He had no hope, no power to stand,
In this vast world, impeccably grand.
Those people who mocked him and insulted,
Were all encouraged because that guy never resisted.

He started losing his faith in life.
As for years, not even a single friend he could find.
He started falling after breaking into pieces,
As for him this world defined no goals or future reaches.

I'm so sad for achieving all losses after great victories,
I wish to see a happy life before I die in these miseries.
The once optimistic and victorious fellow is finding himself lost,
Because today, I've realised, I'm certainly not what I sometime was.