Someone Special

I agree your presence made me red.
You always made me exhilarated,
With every word you said.

When you came closer to someone else,
I cannot express those feelings,
And what I actually felt.

My anger was on its brim.
But, bad heavens, I could only,
Notice you linger with him.

I consoled myself saying that you were never mine.
But I never thought,
Until when I could remain fine?

Everything happened so quickly,
That internally I had no room
To act sagaciously.

I had many other options than to accept that,
You were coupled with someone else.
And your courting with him, I detested.

What the heck you liked in him,
Still remains a conundrum for me,
And the shit reason of all my whims.

I said I loved you
And I will stick with you too.
Let anything come, my love will remain blue.

But no, you never respected my feeling.
You just used and threw me,
As if I was a bloody gosling.

I regret, I condemn, I loathe,
Whatever time we spent together
In our imaginary love boat.

I never wanted our relationship to end this way,
I wanted to hug you
And then go my own way.

I curse, time chose me as its victim
But what could be done now?
Other than to snigger on this stupid reason.

I could never even think you had that much guts to leave me,
I always lived in a delusion then
I thought come whatever may, you will never flee.

You were so pretty and enchanting
That I always took you along,
To practice what people call as 'flaunting'.

This never proved my affection was false
Or it was unanimated or putrid,
Like a corroded statue of bronze.

With a tear I accepted the truth.
I realized I was no more a priority to her,
Or something good.

I forever lost my forte
I am alone in this labyrinth
And to make the matters worse, I'm lost.

But today I'm glad that she's happy.
May the omniscient always bless her,
And make me no more crabby!

I guessed I deserved her denial,
Because I had nothing,
That made ME distinguished or special.

Whatever may be, I still remember those nights,
When my hand locked hers,
And we together watched the skies.